| Once upon a time is how all fairy tales begin
But this story is real
One of joy, one of laughter
One of sorrow, one of tears
We all struggle towards the surface
Of an unreachable future
Only to ponder
What was it for?
I am lost in a world of lies and wonder
my head is so messed up
and I'm so broken inside
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| What do I say?
What can I do
To prove my love for you is true?
I gave you my body
I gave you my heart
I never want us to be torn apart.
Despite what comes between us
Or who I talk to
The only I truly love is you...
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| Ever since I saw him again after fall semester started, he's been haunting my dreams. Why am I even thinking about the guy? What is my subconscious trying to to tell me? It's truly annoying me to hell. We've got nothing to do with eachother. So wtf?
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| When you're by yourself, it's very comforting
No one can see your pain and suffering
So you can suffer in silence
And not worry anyone
It's not as cold as most think it is
Merely a blanket to cool off your head
It keeps away those too afraid to go there
And gives you privacy
Regardless of its ability to hide things
It's my favorite hiding place.
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| "Maybe we should just end it then..." I wanted to scream, kick, run, yell, curse...something....even if I was driving. I wish my word choice wasn't so horrible! Then this confusion would not have occurred in the first place.
I LOVE YOU JARRETT
It hurt me so when you asked me if I really did. I had a hard time eating dinner, trying not to cry, so I kept shoveling food in my mouth to keep my feelings down and keep my tears at bay, before they betrayed me and revealed a waterfall of tears. A few betrayed me, but I wiped them away swiftly and silently. My snuffly nose I blamed on the weather.
I don't want to cry about this anymore, like we both want, but it's a little hard. I want to run, but I don't want to leave you. I want to kick myself, but you don't want me to hurt myself. I want to scream out, but that would annoy both of us. So the only way to explain my feelings is to write them out. In this case, type them out.
I'm sorry I haven't been making as much time for you as I'd like to; I forget sometimes that I need to try too, not just you trying harder. I really don't want to lose you Jarrett, I'd go more crazy than I am now; so crazy that I'd probably be sent to an asylum.
I'm sorry we argued over this 1 day, 3 hours and 53 minutes before our 10 month anniversary. I love you Jarrett. My heart wouldn't be hurting so horribly right now if I didn't. I love you. I love you.
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